I cant believe it still hurts mi the same.. the same amount of pain .. tears cant stop for the whole night.. n i cant slp..

why is it till now then we share our feelings..so its been there..i thought im the only one feeling all i feel ..but why is it till now then i noe.. u went thru the same too..
why am i always late.. i haf all these in my heart since long ago but why dun i haf the courage to tell u ..n that question mark that has been on my mind since then finally its cleared.. but is it really too late.. after sooo much that i went thru.. i still feel the same ..only i myself know my heart..but i couldnt find the chance to tell u ..tt i know i haf missed my right one..but coz of my status.. i  know i dun have the right to feel ..whu am i to tell u how i feel.. all other girls out there like her have all that i cant b compared..

but i realli tried to overcome all hurdles n stay strong in goin w my heart even with all the negative remarks around mi.. n though i dare not hope for anything ..its coz of wad we shared that keeps mi goin..keeps mi in believing in the chance to own xing fu again despite how wrong can it seems to b now ..this u may not know ..the sense of security fr ur eyes tt till before yesterday stil kept me feeling "everyting will be alright "..whenever how wrong things seems to b for mi..speaking all these of how i feel this last time i haf nth to hide juz infront of u animore..im a fool...believing in what only i believe tt perhaps its nt there..

why didnt u let mi know earlier then too.. tings will all b different.. y muz it be the right one missing all the right times.. if we both persist, could we haf overcome all the hurdles and mistakes.. am i the only one left working hard thats already redundant..haf u realli left and found ur future.. i wish n wish all along tt i could stil haf the chance to work towards the same future w u ..after the years i realise love is the basic of all i need ..

Im so so sorry.. knowing that i dont have the right to think abt anything.. theres no where tt i can tell u..but i realli cant help..it takes alot of courage to write these here but i dun wan any more regrets..is it realli too late...

y wil tings turn out this way?
i tot ..or shld i sae i nv tot..
wad u n i once share couldn't even occupy a little corner of ur heart when u choose to leave..
the happi n the unhappi times..
we both went thru r all the same..
but y..
u took juz a min or a dae to let go..
while i took 100 times of tt..100 times of ur pain to do so..
is ur mind.. ur heart.. too occupied by someone or someting tt u couldn't c mi at all..

u once told the bugis flower shop popo tt 10 yrs down the road..u wil bring mi back there..showing her i'm stil xingfu..
xian zai hai ke yi ma..
10 yrs is stil long..
wil tings ever change..
wil this b juz a fullstop for the time being..
y izzit now tt i'm wif 'our him/her' but i'm wifout u..
yuan ben ke yi xing fu de..
its juz next yr..
one more yr to go..
if the time is not yet rite..
tts y tings happen this way to stop gd tings tt r happening..
will some tings happen in future to cause gd tings to happen..
even if its 2-3 yrs 5 yrs later..
it doesn't matter..
i wil stil c wadever tings r happening now..is juz the path to our destination..

YeeLeen
Destined 0304 Love

This moment my tears suddenly flow..
i realli realli ..
miss u..
i can't take it animore 1 dae wifout u..
wad is the ans u haf in mind..
i hope for an ans..
but yet scared to noe..
wo yi jing hen yong gan..
but my courage is almost used up..
qing ni kuai dian hui lai..

YeeLeen
Destined 0304 Love

I miss U soo much..
where haf u been..
how r u now..
i could onli c tt u haf nv moved away from my heart..
but whu is the one in urs..
r our memories still wif u..
i couldn't push them away..

i c ppl cycling..
i miss sitting infront of u on ur bicyle in the middle of the nite..
i c Pastamania..
i dun feel like steppin in at all wifout u..
The movie Horton tt i sae i wanted to watch is out..
but i wouldn't want to watch wif anione else except u..
if hafing a ride on Subaru..
i wish the one beside was u..
ytd(16th Mar) i went for dinner at Gombak..
i miss hafing dinner wif u n ur family..
Taking the escalator..
i miss ur nagging tt was always wanting to juz protect mi..
Looking at the Ferris Wheel i wanted to try so long..
i didn't even consider goin up wifout u..
i took n kept the brochure for the Ferris Wheel..
waiting for tt dae to come..tt i could c u beside..
when u aren't there when i'm wif my frenz..
i promise myself to bring u to all my gatherings when u're back..
when i'm down..
i miss always when u're there..
when my tears fall..
i miss u calling mi 'sha gua'
when i feel so cold..
i wan no one else jacket but i miss urs..
i almost get all the freedom tt was there..
but i rather hope u can stop mi..
i go home alone in the middle of the nite..
tinking in the past..i would nv go back alone..u wil send mi back safely no matter how late..
when my mummy ask mi to start saving for my wedding next time..
i can't find the aim of my dream wifout u..
tinking of my wedding..
i can't imagine the one beside isn't u..
perhaps someting tt u haven noe..which is the shared account card tt i went to make..
i'm hoping u wil let mi cont b its owner when u receive it...

Then i realised..
Wifout U so much couldn't b done..
Past memories couldn't b shared together..
Future memories couldn't b created..

if i could b wif U again..
i would show u how much i treasure..
n how much we shld..

Missing U........

YeeLeen
Destined 0304 Love

Todae i listen to the song 左边.. n inside the line saes..

"..我一直相信 总有一天 你会用左手 牵着我走向明天 未来很遥远 却会实现 心在同一边 就能够 听见 你说的 那句 我爱你.. "

你说的...

Ru GuO yOu Yi TiAn Ni HuI dAo Wo ShEn BiAn..

Na ShI dE nI hUi QuE dInG dUi Wo De Ai YoU dUo ZhEn..

HuI yOnG qUaN xIn Ai Wo..

HuI gEi Wo ZhEn ZhEn Shu Yu Wo De XiNg Fu..

DaO sHi Wo HuI bI cHoNg QiAn HaI yAo XiNg Fu KaI xIn..

Ru GuO nA tIaN dAo Le..

Ni YaO jI dE ZaI dUi Wo SuO "Wo Ai Ni" ..

Na cAi ShI Wo YaO zHen ZhEn De Ai..

-yeeleen-

現在.. 這竟然變成我和你唯一說話的方式..

我有話要你对說..

你要記得.. 要知道..

1. 我不會ying wei沒有你而覺得快樂一些
2. 離開你永遠不會是對我最好
3. 我並不是不愛妳..
4. ..更不是忘記你

一切是ying wei我相信我们的爱..所以 nai 心等待..

-yeeleen-